reblogging for the tags.
It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven’t left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. Ha ha, funny. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are.
A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn’t transition well to adult life, that you’d fall right through the cracks. And look at you now. La di da, it’s happening.
Your mother, your father, your grandparents: they all look at you like you’re some prized jewel and they tell you over and over again just how lucky you are to be young and have your whole life ahead of you. “Getting old ain’t for sissies,” your father tells you wearily.
You wish they’d stop saying these things to you because all it does is fill you with guilt and panic. All it does is remind you of how much you’re not taking advantage of your youth.
You want to kiss all kinds of different people, you want to wake up in a stranger’s bed maybe once or twice just to see if it feels good to feel nothing, you want to have a group of friends that feels like a tribe, a bonafide family. You want to go from one place to the next constantly and have your weekends feel like one long epic day. You want to dance to stupid music in your stupid room and have a nice job that doesn’t get in the way of living your life too much. You want to be less scared, less anxious, and more willing. Because if you’re closed off now, you can only imagine what you’ll be like later.
Every day you vow to change some aspect of your life and every day you fail. At this point, you’re starting to question your own power as a human being. As of right now, your fears have you beat. They’re the ones that are holding your twenties hostage.
Stop thinking that everyone is having more sex than you, that everyone has more friends than you, that everyone out is having more fun than you. Not because it’s not true (it might be!) but because that kind of thinking leaves you frozen. You’ve already spent enough time feeling like you’re stuck, like you’re watching your life fall through you like a fast dissolve and you’re unable to hold on to anything.
I don’t know if you ever get better. I don’t know if a person can just wake up one day and decide to be an active participant in their life. I’d like to think so. I’d like to think that people get better each and every day but that’s not really true. People get worse and it’s their stories that end up getting forgotten because we can’t stand an unhappy ending. The sick have to get better. Our normalcy depends upon it.
You have to value yourself. You have to want great things for your life. This sort of shit doesn’t happen overnight but it can and will happen if you want it.
Do you want it bad enough? Does the fear of being filled with regret in your thirties trump your fear of living today?
We shall see.
You’re Not Making The Most Of Your 20s, Ryan O’Connell
Map Shows Zip Codes With Highest Income and Education Levels
The Washington Post reports on “super zips”—postcodes that rank highly for income and college education levels. A striking interactive map is included in the article, to show what money looks like from space.
Image: Washington Post
Hello from a Super Zip! LOL
He sounds better than Lorde tho
I was not at all prepared.
I wasn’t ready.
Oh my god, this kid is amazing!
por poco lloro
um, if the internet can make justin bieber famous, can this kid please get a contract?!? that was insane.
First full dress for Peter Pan tonight…I cannot believe how much the kids have earned this opening…we lost 5 cast members 2 weeks ago, we have suffered through injuries (Peter, Wendy, and Smee, just to name a few)…the kids have REALLY dug down deep to create a very special show. I can’t wait for them to see it all come together for the first time tonight. It’s gonna be AWESOME!
Tech was…good…well…interesting. The costume designer and lighting designer hate each other, so that always makes for a fun day. Two kids stole the pizza at lunch and had a contest who could convince cast members to take pizza from their box. Pizza Corps versus Beeftastic Pizza. I love my little theater freaks.
Confession…I am obsessed with 80s aerobic dance competition videos.
For the first time since I can’t remember when, I’m actually EXCITED for Tech Saturday. The lights are looking good, the set is in good shape, the costumes are to die for, and the kids are BRINGING. IT.